The Dust Has Settled...

This morning I was sitting in a room with 40 other teachers, waiting to see who would have a job and who wouldn't, it was pretty nerve wrecking. I arrived on time, 8 o'clock, not earlier. Luckily, because they started the whole process REALLY LATE! At about 9am they started the whole thing. (For those of you who havec no idea waht was going on, Nye County School District decided to cut 28 elementary school teachers. They cut teachers from each school that were the lowest depending on their seniority, instead of cutting from the bottom of the seniority list. So now the teacher's had to bump other teacher who were less seniored...yes, yes.....A HUGE MESS!) So at around 9 am we start the bumping process. They took one person at a time and told them the jobs they were qualified for in the district and gave you the least seniored person to bump. Some people took a long time. I was the 16th person from the top, so at around 10:30 am I was called in.

Now I've been really nervous about this whole situation. First I was ANGRY! ANGRY doesn't even describe it, I loathed the person who made these decisions. Then I was SAD! Now I've come to grips with change...and even though this year at Hafen Elementary School we have had a "Dream Team," I'm reminded that life is full of changes. Something has to make sense somewhere...I feel that this is just such an insane move that somehow it was meant to be. I know it is actually. I am starting to feel more and more at peace with the idea that my only close friends here will soon be off to new adventures in the East. AND that Daniel is deployed. AND that I will be switching schools. I am ok with that. In fact, I am praying that Erik gets his dream job. Afterall, I really feel that he deserves this. I'm actually feeling like a change in schools wouldn't kill me, it will give me an opportunity to reinvent myself and not allow myself to get complacent in the workplace. I feel that God has to watching out for all of us and even though all of this is INSANE and CHAOTIC and feels UNNATURAL, we will all learn and grow and continue to live. I feel that God will protect Daniel and that we will all somehow make it through the mess that we call life.

Anyhow, I was given options of where to accept a job. The choice was obvious. And now I'm sitting on this decision and feeling it is okay. I haven't felt this much peace in a while. I'm so thankful that I feel this. I'm embracing myself for the next bump in life, as life goes....but until then, I'm glad the dust has finally settled.